Yes, folks! After 2 years, we will be launching our EP album "No Reason" on AUGUST 1, 2009 at GENRE BAR, CUBAO EXPO.

What: KAZE No Reason EP Launch
When: August 1, 2009
Where: Genre Bar, Cubao X (formerly known as Marikina Shoe Expo)

Wait for the final poster to be posted for the band line-up, map of the venue, entrance fee, and other details.

Save the date and hope to see you there!

Currently listening: Sando - Malinis

This actually says it all...

After months of peer pressure evading...I finally gave in.

So there. Add me up. If I know you, I add you...hehehe.

Currently feeling: awake

Yeah, I've been watching "How I Met Your Mother" lately. This show is AWESOME and LEGEND...wait for it...ARY. Too bad, I only learned about this series just recently...every episode just hits me "right at the spot"...

(Two hours later...after drinking a couple of beers and watching a few more episodes in my room)

Oh, who am I kidding! I was supposed to be talking about me "tedding out" and some other stuff from the series that's so related to what's happening to me right now. Today was awesome...and it was supposed to be awesome-er...but I blew it. It got awkward and then I choked...again. God! I hate this! I'm going to bed. "Nothing good happens after 2am." Better yet, Nothing good EVER happens.

Currently watching: How I Met Your Mother S02E15

I was trying not to laugh while typing the title...a little inside joke. Hehe.

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Sobrang badtrip. I was supposed to join the fun run this morning; but I didn't wake up.

I charged my phone at my room. Then I went upstairs to my 'rents room to wash up. After a quick shower, I turned on the TV like I normally do and saw harry potter 5 on HBO. It was almost finished. I sat down on the lazy chair to watch. The next thing I knew, I was waking up...and it was already 730am! WTF!!! Magigising sana ako e...if I only have my phone with me. Kaso...katangahan...iniwan ko sa kwarto ko sa baba. Wala na...badtrip. Tumakbo nalang ako...wala na e...badtrip talaga.

Anyway, a hyposit just to ease my pain...

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What if you liked someone...but this person that you like, you feelthat you have your lifestyles to the extreme. What I mean is that yourlifestyle is totally different or maybe the complete opposite of yours.For example, you like to go out and hang out. The other likes to stayat home (most of the time). Sometimes, you ask that person to go out;but she doesn't like too (she has good reasons to stay at home). Most of the time, you want to take her out,but you can't because of the many things that you do (because you're abusy busy person). You really want to make it work. The thing is, youhave no idea how the other person thinks about you. What would you do?

Currently feeling: pissed

Wow...I can't believe I haven't written any of these since Novemeber! 4 months bebe! 1st for 2009! Hehe...

Anyway, you were walking on the school yard, when you see a big black hole. At the side of the black hole was a sign that says, "Enter the hole and you can time travel back into any point in your past; but you can only time travel once and then, the hole will disappear". (Sorry naman...I'm kidda dry of creative juices).

If you had the chance to go back in time once and had the opportunity to change one thing at any point of your life, what would it be and how would you like it to be/happen?

Currently watching: Minutemen

(Originally posted: 2006/07/21 13:34)

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It's Friday again! And it's time for "This Week's Feature"!

I have to formalize this weekly feature thing, because I think people don't get it if I just post it as a sticky-post and put it in the "This Week's Feature" category.

For those who want to view my latest posts, please view my post after this one.

This week's feature is an article by Mariel G. Calalo who is a contributor for YOU. It's an old article which I think was published last 2004. It's an article that realizes the learnings (and craziness) about platonic relationships.

For some people who know me and know my friends; and knows how close me and my friends are with each other; and keeps bothering me about it...basahin nyo to (hehe):

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Things Learned From Intergender Friendships
By Mariel G. Calalo
YOU contributor

THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.

Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.

Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not. Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.

Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.

Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as
"kawntri" and the word mango as "meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.

Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor.

A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no. Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through. Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.

I therefore conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.

Currently feeling: I wanna go home!

Grabe, kakareset ko lang tapos ganito pa mga sumalubong sakin? Hay...parang kelangan ko nanaman ata magreset a...hahaha!

WARNING: A very very LONG entry. I think the longest entry I've written in a very long time.

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I welcomed the 13th with 4 of my officemates (1 being my former boss) and chiqui at laiya bar at bf.

That time, I was still thinking what to do on my birthday. Originally, I planned to go backpacking (alone), but I didn't push because of the ayala fun run and a commitment to the rivera clan the following day. I thought of checkin in at sofitel (which was my favorite hotel) and "magpaka-loner" the whole day.

After 2 more buckets of beer, I decided to push through with the backpacking and just not attend my prior commitments the following day. I needed this alone-time for than anything else. And I wanted things to be different and just for myself, not for anybody else. I'm sure those people would understand.

At 400 hours, still drunk, I got home, packed my backpack with my laptop, a pair of undies, pants, shirt, and socks and went on my way. I proceeded to the victory liner bus station at pasay. With only P5000 in my wallet, I didn't know where to go; so I bought a ticket going to olongapo at P200+, which is about a 3-hour ride, which was enough for me to sleep and sober up. I though I can think about where to go next when I get there.

As I arrived in olongapo, the conductor woke me up. I didn't know what time it was because my cellphone was already drained. I was still hung over from last night, so I took a cab, proceeded to the nearest motel and slept. I woke up around 1130, turned on my phone only to receive a barrage of sms's of happy birthday greetings. I loaded up (kasi wala narin ako load that time), ate at the nearest carideria and went on my way.

I still didn't know where to go, so I walked around for a while, got tired, and then just rode a jeepney (I didn't know where it was actually going), and thought where to go next. I thought of going to baguio next. I was there about 2 weeks ago during the panagbenga festival but I never got to see the festival and got a little stressed rather than relaxed. (Don't get me wrong, I still enjoyed that trip). So it was kind of a redemption for me go there and enjoy the cold and relax. So, I got off the jeep and sought my way back to the bus terminal (which I almost got lost, by the way).

At the bus terminal, I bought the ticket the 3pm bus ride to Baguio. I reached Baguio at around 10pm. I needed a place to stay so went to Microtel Inn, which was the nearest hotel there was. (It was just behind the bus terminal). Sadly, there weren't any cheap rooms available. So I walked around asking people for hotel nearby. (Yeah, I preferred a hotel rather than a transient home...just to bypass the thought of not being ablt to check in at sofitel...and because of the Sarah McLachlan song...hehe). Some guy at the tourist info center told of a hotel near the city market, so I walked from the station all the way to the hotel.

The name of the place I checked in was Hotel Villa Rosal which was conveniently placed near the city market and burnham park. It wasn't much - small room, cable tv (with bad reception), bathroom...just enough for myself. It cost me P1600 for an overnight stay. After checking in, I went to zola (which has free wifi), power surfed, drank a couple of beers, ate, and then went back at around 1am. From then on, I just lied there listening to Angel by Sarah McLachlan until shut eyes.

And, that is how I spent my birthday.

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Update: Today, feeling refreshed, I just walked around the city. Right now, I'm at zola just waiting for night fall to get a ride back home. I'm ready to go back and face my life as I left it.

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I just realized...I didn't took any pictures of my travel adventure...so you just have to take my word for it...hahahaha!

Currently listening: Kaze - Beyond The Clouds

Me + Birthday + Friday the 13th + Full Moon + Backpack + Baguio + Red Horse = Life Master Reset

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Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
Oh, and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting
Keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees

--Angel. Sarah McLachlan

Currently listening: Sarah McLachlan - Angel

You Never Learn, Do You...

Currently listening: Sarah McLachlan - Angel

I'm still up...couldn't sleep. Must be the 2 sachets of Extra Joss I took before the basketball game last night.

I haven't been blogging the past few weeks...not too much to write about anyway...except for a few new things:

- Been hooked up with this MMORPG called Estiah. It's like Magic and D&D combined!

- I've been running 5 to 6 miles almost everyday for the past 4 weeks now. I also play ball every Sunday. This is the persuit for sexyness ;)

- Got a new band called Laki sa Lawak Kolektib. It's world music combined with spoken word. I still play drums but sometimes I get to play bass

- Already sold my car...trying to find and buy a 2nd hand one...probably a revo, but I'm considering a vios as well (we need to be practical in these times)

Oops, 7 AM...I should probably go to work now...while I'm still awake.

Currently watching: Frasier

"...sya parin ang (first) love ko."

awwwww... (Thanks trish for showing the video)

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On other news, Eheads Reunion 2: "The Final Set" is set on the 7th of March this year. Either sa the Fort ulet or sa MOA ang venue. No details regarding the ticket yet, pero malamang parehas lang nung last time.

Currently watching: this video
Currently feeling: tired

Guess what santa got me this christmas...

I've been looking for this movie (on dvd) since 2004! Last time I watched this movie was on the day our trusty old betamax player retired for good (I think I was in the 6th grade).

It's an old 80's movie about a high school boy (Scott Baio) who, after a laboratory accident, had gotten the power of telekenesis. It's a romantic-comedy (with lots of breast exposures...hehe). Believe it or not, this is my favorite movie...ever!

Currently watching: Zapped!

(Wizard of Oz to Tin Man)As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart? You don't know howlucky you are not to have one...

Currently listening: Rachael Yamagata - Elephants (Instrumental)
Currently feeling: drunk

Photo Taken: All Hallow's Eve (Lomomanila's Halloween Party)
Camera: Smena 35
Film: Kodak BW400CN
Model: Shadow as Heath Ledger

Currently listening: Wolfgang - RP Deathsquad
Currently feeling: bored

During of the days of the first and second world wars, (since the army people can only do so much) military doctors during that time would use whisky or rhum as anesthetics before they make any surgical operations on wounded soldiers in the battle field. No, they don't pour it onto their wounds (because that would hurt even more). They'd make the patient drink lots and lots of alcohol until they feel numb enough, so that they will feel less pain during the operation.

It's the poorman's anesthesia.

When we have any problems, whether it was serious or shallow, we tend to go the comfort of a cold beer or a couple of shooters alone in a bar or, oftentimes, with the company of our friends. We drink to make the pain go away or we drink to become numb, preventing any pain to be felt at all...even before the hurt gets into our system.

It's the poorman's anesthesia. 

The problem is...anesthetics are temporary. It can only subdue the feeling for so little time...then you start to feel the pain again. Pain starts to get into your nervous system and you start feeling the hurt.

I need to get drunk again...soon.

Currently listening: Rachael Yamagata - Over And Over
Currently feeling: contemplative

Struck twice in a month (there's a first). Strike three and I'm out.

Nothing's going too well these days :-\

Currently listening: Mozzie - Shut It
Currently feeling: guilty

Bakit naman kasi ganyan ang mga kanta mo sa bago mong album na "Elephant...Teeth Sinking Into Heart"?

"You are forcing me to remember
When all I want is to just forget you"

"So for those of you falling in love
Keep it kind, keep it good, keep it right
Throw yourself in the midst of danger
But keep one eye open at night" --Elephant

"I really thought I was okay
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke this time
There was nothing to take me back to sleep
To take you off my mind" --Over And Over

Currently listening: Rachael Yamagata - Over And Over
Currently feeling: sad

Note: Repost from Andoy. Wala lang...hehehe.

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Drunken advice, immaturity and relationships

Asking your significant other to be fair is immature and asking them todo what you want them to do by doing it to them or setting an exampleis totally idealistic. The world is not perfect; there is no balancebetween good and bad - right or wrong. There will always be flaws andunfairness, mistakes and lies, expectations and letdowns. You willnever get what you give since Life is not fair. Yan ang katotohanan and it hurts.

Itdoesn’t matter how faithful or loving you are in your relationship withrespect to the world or in reality for that matter. It will not meritto anything when sparks start to fly across the room. It will meannothing when the rarity of the moment comes into play. Dadating ang situation where you will be taken for granted – for better or forworse. All that is and all that will be on that very moment will onlybe who you are and your moral fiber. It is where we get our decisionsfor our actions from that will define us for who we are.

Don’t expect too much from someone you can’t change nor understand. Potah mas maganda pa nga if you just mind your own business and let Life happen. Love becauseyou want to love and not because you want to be loved in return.Express your feelings because you need to and not because you wantothers to express how they feel towards you and hope that you will bothhave the same feelings for each other and believe that there is aconnection in the space between. Asa ka pa. It is not a game of who loves more than who nor is it a moment to regret for the rest of your life.

Kung talagang in love ka, your heart will never be stolen by someone unless you want it to be taken. Why? Tangina, basic logic will dictate that nothing will be taken if there was nothing to take in the first place diba? When you’re in love, you give your heart to that special someone.

Pag nagsimula ka nang mag-mahal,you start to let go of your defenses and start to hope for a lot ofthings. Like hoping that she will not take away whatever little dignityand self respect that you have left or that she will see something inyou that would make her stay. You start to act dumb and stupid, feelguilty and sad. Only to realize that you have given all that you cangive and yet somehow, you are still not good enough.
 
Don’t waste your time on pondering senseless what ifs and what nots. Sayang lang ang effort. So what if you are uncertain of the times ahead? There will be changes,there will be questions but the thing is to know what questions areimportant and to be able to answer those questions. Mas ok nalang siguro if we just let things be and leave out the solicitation of assurancesas it only brings in more hope, expectations and pressure to live up tothose promises.
 
Ang sinasabi ko lang is that it’s ok to fall in love head over heels, leche just bring lots of bandage. Tagay pa nga.

Currently listening: Parokya Ni Edgar - Akala

...ang ulo ko

...sa taas. Hehehe. Ouch.

Currently listening: Parokya Ni Edgar - Amats